It's Only Beauty

I can hear the others
Their voices echo off these hallowed
     -walls
    no
    cold flesh of mine
I can hear them
  and I know your not in the crowd
    Not waiting
      waiting for me to pick myself up
          or cleaned up
      But God the pain!
   The workings of his punishments
     Punishments of love
       Such cruelty
   and so here I am
Shattered on the concrete
  Too far gone
     for love
I fell
and forgot to tell you to catch me
   and waiting for you to realize
   and scared you'll never notice
          scared you won't dull the pain

How could I be so stupid
How could I let it happen

  I don't want to get up
I'll compare them all to you
   and they will fail

I can hear them all now
  one now in particular
   so familiar
     and so fresh
  an anchor holding me down
I'm too scared to call out
   His power is irritatingly fulfilling

I can hear him now
  Im not sure what he says
  But he says it so beautifully
He's picking up my limp hand
    pulling me up
   and i see now he's not you
     no,
       You were a heavenly power
      Both horrifying and wonderful
  no,
   He's deliverance
      A dream
        I don't remember having
      A wish
        I don't remember making
      A perfection
        I don't remember deserving
   and Air
        I don't remember breathing

There's nothing horrifying about his touch
    it's only beauty